|Don't even get me started on what I look like here....|
A year has come and gone in the blink of an eye. There have been so many tender, sweet, joyful moments with my sweet baby by my side, but there have also been scary, sad, lonely, and tearful moments as well. I have always said that I will always be honest and always be ME on my blog. With that being said, my life is not crazy glamorous, my marriage isn't perfect, and I don't live like a queen every day, so I don't want to give the wrong impression in this post. BUT today, I want to focus on all of the positivethat has happened this year with my boy!
Bubba Fen, you are the love of my life. A year ago, I used to go to bed around midnight, and roll out of bed 5 minutes before work around 7:10, put my hair in a quick ponytail, and run out the door. I didn't slow down or consider myself a "morning person."
Now, I usually wake up about 30 minutes before you wake up, get a shower and get ready for the day, warm your bottle, have a cup of coffee, and you are up by 7:30-8:00. I LOVE mornings with you. They are the best! I love to watch you slurp your bottle and give you sweet smooches! This is one of our sweetest times together! I love Saturday mornings because we usually get to take our time and go get breakfast out, Chick Fil A being our favorite, and Hardees being your daddy's :)
A year ago, I didn't really have anyone to care about besides myself. Although I cared for your dad, family, and my friends, nothing compares to the responsibility and care that I have for you. This bond, this precious gift, and this responsibility comes at a cost sometimes. Life has been a bit of an adjustment since you, but I really wouldn't change it, no matter what.
It's been a fun and crazy year, Fen! You don't like toys. You never have, and I am guessing you never will. You are intrigued by a toy when you see it for the first time, but once you figure out how it works, you are over it. You like walls, and banging on doors, you like cabinets and smashing your tiny fingers in them, you like mommy's pots, pans and pantry shelves. You love yanking the spaghetti box off the shelf, and pulling tin foil out so that it's 2 feet long. You love toilet paper and anything that crinkles. You love playing with mommy and daddy's shoes. Oh, one of my favorites is that you love to run right to your humidifier when it's full of water and knock it down! What can I say, you're a dainty little thing....NOT!
You never really walked. You just decided to get up a few weeks ago, run and face plant over and over again. What can I say, you are advanced (hehe).
You love when mommy shakes her boob feathers. This makes you crack up (when you're in the mood to crack up).
You love trying big people food.
You like laptop buttons, and you love to help mommy type when she is right in the middle of writing something important! Oops.
You love full coffee mugs, and taking big boy poops when we are in restaurants or stores, never at home.
You don't like the word, "NO." In fact, you let us know how much you don't like the word "NO VERY quickly."
You love your sleep. You still take two naps a day and sleep from about 8pm-7:30-8am. I am so thankful for this!
Jokes aside, this has been one of the sweetest, hardest, most challenging, most amazing years of my life. I've met the Lord in some of the loneliest places, but He has proved faithful, and He has given us YOU, baby Fenwick! I can never thank God enough for restoring the broken places in our home and in my heart (more on this another day). You have been the sweetest, most cheerful, happiest blessing I have ever experienced. You opened up this piece of my heart that I never knew was there. I love you so much, it really does hurt. I can't wait for the fun to come and heck, I'll even welcome the challenges too because at the end of the day, you are worth it, and your daddy and I are SO BLESSED!!!!!!! You have so many people who love you and who help take care of you. You have wonderful grandparents who give their all to you and spoil you rotten! One of my friends that I went to school with used to say, "When mom says no, ask Grandma!" So, I'll let you in on that little secret early :) I'm smitten with you, Bubba!!! You have our hearts. Thank you for loving me so unconditionally, too. It's the sweetest bond, and sweetest relationship, and I look forward to so many amazing years to come (and yes.....I am counting down the days to your first trip to Disney)!!! Love you, baby!
I also want to take a minute and give a huge, huge thank you to my sweet friend, Sarah who took Fenwick's 1 year photos. You made this FUN!!!! I am so appreciative of how understanding you were working with a baby, so thanks to Luke and Jonah for gifting your mom with amazing patience, boys!! Hehe. In all seriousness though, you have become such a great friend and a mother I really look up to. You have taught me many tricks for baby, and you have also made me hysterically laugh when I really needed it as well. Friends, please check out her website. She really is the most gifted, sweet, FUN, and authentic photographer. I so so so so wish she could've shot our wedding, but I didn't know her yet! t just love her! She is a doll!