Saturday, March 19, 2011
When I thought about making a post today, I really couldn’t think of something fun or cute to bring up. No how-to’s, no girlie business…nada. Why? Because I’m exhausted. I feel a little burnt out with all of the stuff I’m trying to juggle (because yes, it’s just STUFF). It’s nothing that pretty much everybody in the world hasn’t gone through. It’s the daily routine…working, serving at church, trying to keep the house clean, trying to do laundry (I’m cringing thinking about the fact that I’m blogging instead of doing laundry), trying to maintain friendships, trying to spend time with your significant other (in this case, my certified twentyyyy hubby), trying to cook, oh and then just trying to have MY OWN down time to watch A Walk to Remember. I’ve been so aggravated with myself lately because I feel stretched way too thin, and I haven’t accomplished the 2-3 things I really want to get done, simply because I get caught up in all of my other junk.
With that said, I know the devil tries to deceive me into thinking I just don’t get things done, and that I’m not good enough. The bad aspect about what I’ve just said is that for about five minutes, on a bad, woe-is-me day, I actually buy into this lie and get down on myself.
The beautiful aspect about what I’ve just said is that eventually, I snap out of this twisted thought and remember that I was DESIGNED by CHRIST Himself.
Evidence of this truth:
“For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.” -Psalm 139:13-14
Now, back to the sad factor. What hurts me the most about everything I’ve just explained is that I know about 99% of women (my own made up statistic that I think is fairly accurate) have also felt this way. The even sadder factor is that there are tons of women AND men who actually believe they aren’t good enough or who are trying SO hard every day to accomplish all of these “things” just so that they can feel like they matter or bring something to the table. There is nothing wrong with getting chores done, maintaining activities, enjoying hobbies, and being successful, but what I want everyone to remember, both Christians and non-Christians, is that YOU WERE ALSO FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. Smile ☺
Don’t buy into the lies. Don’t get down on yourself. When you’re tired, like this season I’m in right now, and like everyone else has been though, recognize that you probably just need some rest before getting all psycho-emotional like me. Oh, and try your hardest NOT to compare yourself to all those people who look like they’ve got it together. More than likely, they don’t…unless Jesus is their foundation.
Lastly, I’ll leave you with this demand from God, not me…It is often one of the hardest commands for me to obey.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” –Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)
Here are the same verses from The Message for you modern peeps out there that needs to hear this in layman’s terms like moi ☺
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." –Matthew 11:28-30 (The Message)
(Yes, the picture above is a picture of my journal. I typically hand-write things first...it's the only way I know how to write).
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Growing up, I always thought about the kind of woman I wanted to be when I “grew up.” I would literally picture my life, of course as a wife and mom. I would picture my clean, adorable house with all of the laundry done and food on the table every night. I would picture sitting around with my mom and my kids, and then picture my husband walking in the door at 5:00. It’s sort of funny to me that with this little daydream, I never anticipated to be married at such a young age.
Well, as it would turn out, I am now 21 and married! It is so exciting and such a blessing, but geeze, do I feel like I have a lot of growing up to do. Sometimes I feel that there aren’t enough hours in the day to do all of the things I want to do to the house and to accomplish all of the things I would like to get done. Especially when I compare myself to the Proverbs 31 woman…it can be a little intimidating.
But then I remember that God has a perfect plan and purpose designed specifically for me and my life. I also get really giddy and thank God that my life didn’t go according to MY “plans” and that I’m stepping into “womanhood” at such a young age…way younger than I ever expected. I am really trying to meditate on Proverbs 31 during this new and exciting season to mold me into the woman I need to be and truly want to be. I love the Lord so much, and I want to please him, but wow…sometimes I wonder how I could ever be this woman. Who is she? Have you ever stopped and really pictured her? I swear it’s like she isn’t human. Ha
To start my marriage off the right way, I really feel like I not only need to click spiritually with my husband, but I’ve got to work on some things on my own so I am bringing my 100% best to this marriage. With that said, I am going to memorize the second half of Proverbs 31. I am going to aspire to be this woman, and I’m going to specifically pray over this chapter every day. I am asking the Lord to help me become this woman. It is not going to be easy for me. It takes being a hard-worker, having joy in all circumstances, and doing your best to always love and pour into the lives of others…but I know this is what God wants from me. This is what he designed me to be. On that note, I will stop writing and I will jot down the part of the chapter that I want to memorize. After all, my crazy thoughts can’t even compare to the word of God.
“A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her
And lacks nothing of value.
She brings him good, not harm,
All the days of her life.
She selects wool and flax
And works with eager hands.
She is like the mercan ships,
Bringing her food from afar.”